Me Again

I just thought this was a particularly cute picture of me. I had some cute earrigns on too, but by the end of the night they fell out of my ear and broke. LOL

This is me rocking the MIC at my 80's Party.

If I had time

If I had time, I would talk about:

• My family and the fun and intricacies of my Thanksgiving break
• Hey I made my first apple pie or thanksgiving, it was good. (Go me, its my birthday)
• How I don't know what I want to do with my life (Surprise I don't think anybody does, but its still disheartening)
• About me being sick of singleness (disheartening)
• About me being the only black person 9 of the 10 areas of my life. (depressing)
• About the couple of books I just finished reading - Enjoying God's Presence, Word, and the great divorce. (made me realize how much I don't trust or believe God, again disheartening)
• About this Neo-Soul gospel CD I just got for my birthday (uplifting and smooth) Lisa McClendon
• Did anyone see "Get Rich or Die Trying", (I liked it, encouraging)
• I might even write a poem for yall to read. Hey I thought about becoming a rap star LOL. I love performing, but I cant sing, and the world is missing quality female rap stars. (dreaming)
• I have to get my wisdom teeth taken out. (that ish will be painful, but i only have one cavity)
• How my heart is prone to negativity (pessimism is a -itch) my attitude is poor
• How I have this job i want to apply for (exciting)
• How interesting it is to be a part of various worlds that are very different and often conflicting or at least of different sides of the spectrum (Who am I, the girl dem suga) I just have to have a random song for everything i think - that was for my reggae fans
• And to leave you on a good note i only have 3 more weeks of school. (relieving)

"Quarter-life Crisis"

I got this in an email earlier today and it sounds like my life, a big question mark

Being Twenty-Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when youstop going along with the crowd and start realizingthat there are many things about yourself that youdidn't know and may not like. You start feelinginsecure and wonder where you will be in a year ortwo, but then get scared because you barely know whereyou are now. You start realizing that people areselfish and that, maybe, those friends that youthought you were so close to aren't exactly thegreatest people you have ever met, and the people youhave lost touch with are some of the most importantones. What you don't recognize is that they arerealizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty,mean or insincere but that they are as confused as>you. You look at your job... and it is not even closeto what you thought you would be doing, or maybe youare looking for a job and realizing that you are goingto have to start at the bottom and that scares you.Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see whatothers are doing and find yourself judging more thanusual because suddenly you realize that you havecertain boundaries in your life and are constantlyadding things to your list of what is acceptable andwhat isnt. One minute, you are insecure and then thenext, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatestforce of your life. You feel alone and scared andconfused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you tryand cling on to the past with dear life, but soonrealize that the past is drifting further and furtheraway, and there is nothing to do but stay where youare or move forward. You get your heart broken andwonder how someone you loved could do such damage toyou. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meetanyone decent enough that you want to get to knowbetter. Or maybe you love someone but love someoneelse too and cannot figure out why you are doing thisbecause you know that you aren't a bad person.One-night-stands and random hook ups start to lookcheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot startsto look pathetic. You go through the same emotions andquestions over and over, and talk with your friendsabout the same topics because you cannot seem to makea decision. You worry about loans, money, the futureand making a life for yourself... and while winningthe race would be great, right now you'd just like tobe a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in ourbest of times and our worst of times, trying as hardas we can to figure this whole thing out. These are the hardest years and the ones that are the most draining, but with the right aim and attitude towards it all.....success will be your only option. Make it your only option. Take all that haunts you to the extreme. Fullfill your dreams dont just sit and talk about them, act upon them. These times are confusing but it is at this age where life really begins, dont bullshit . And, do not give up!!!!!!

Walmart Watch

I went to this booksigning the other night of the women who wrote the book "Nickle and Dimed." The author is a journalist who see's if she can support herself as a low wage worker. So anyway she worked at Walmart and revealed some shady practices of the organization.

If you havent seen it go see the Walmart movie, the "high cost of low prices," is what i think it is called, you may have seen some commercials. I didnt get to see the movie yet, because my friend got the days mixed up. Go to Walmart Watch to get more details about walmart's practices. These people are calling Walmart out and trying to make them better corporate citizens and provide more benefits to their workers, most of which make $7 /hr.

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Today on my way to church I saw the old women who bought the man on the corner footpowder. She was on her way to church. I knew she was a Christian.

I had a Mary Kay makeover yesterday. Now I have satin hands and satin lips. mmmmmmm
I keep getting told that i have nice features, Gap here i come. A couple of spots on my face were itching the rest of the night. Nothing serious, besides that it was a cool makeover.

I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory(weird, i liked the first one better, he seemed like a lunatic in this one), White Chicks (i only saw about 3/4th of it, but it was pretty funny) and Zoolander(it was my friends birthday and we watched it on the big screen outside, it was stupid, yet entertaining) this weekend. I want to watch School Dayz, i havent seen that in so long, i love 80's movies. Oh and i am supposed to go see the Walmart documentary tonite. That should be good. I will let yall know how it is. I hate how horrible the world is, but we must come face to face with it.

One week, with no sweets. Its so liberating, i tell you. I'm learning how to say no thank you again. And I worked out 3x. Lets see if i can make it to two.

I'm tired from my run today and my back hurts. If anybody wants to get me a nice Christmas or late birthday gift, I need a massage.

The Update

Wow, I havent blogged in almost a month. Nothing particularly new and interesting is going on in my life.

I turned 25 last weekend. That was fun. I had an 80's party at my house. It was cool, we had all 80's music and we had music posters, TV show posters, theme songs, 45 records and album posters all over the walls in my house. Check this, i had the orginal Thriller 45 and a record player. We had 80's snacks, lip synching, trivia and my housemates made drinks called the electric slide, smurt punch, and the pink panther. So all and all a bunch of people came out, about 85% of people were dressed in 80's clothes. I was happy 2 of my college friend came down too. We danced and sang to 80's music. It was pretty fun. I danced hard and was sore the next day. Oh i had two costumes. One-- i looked like someone off the movie breakin or fame. I had on leggings, leg wormers, a sweat shirt with the neck cut out, a head ban, jelly bracelets, a glove with the fingers out, and some high top sneakers. My second get up was a rapper. I had a red warm up suit, an old mess chap i wore backwards, and a gold chain. It was funny. My favorite song of the night, which was in my head all this week was : Wanna Dance with Somebody by Whitney Houston.

The day before that i went to see the play For Colored Girls who have considered suicide, when the rainbow is enuf. I've saw this before in college, but it was nice to see it again. A friend of mine played the lady in orange back then i think. So that was cool.

Last weekend i went to this Delta ball, (one of my friends here is a Delta) and that was off the chain. Me and a bunch of my friends got all dressed up and partied and danced all evening. It was really fun. Yall know I can cut a rug. I was sore after that too. But i looked nice. Its nice to get dressed up once in a while. It reminded me of he Visions of Excellence Ball they had a Georgetown. All the black undergrads would get all dressed up, get dates and get all sweaty from dancing in their nice clothes. And then we would get awards from The Minority Student Affairs Office. My last year i got an award for Community Service. Look at me getting nastagic, i miss college and being surrounded by my peoples.

Lets see what else.....
I like my job alot these days. I got a small raise which is always cool.
My aunts house burned down in NY, so that was traggic. And that has spurred other family drama. Got to love family drama.
School is ok, i feel like i am not really doing much or into it. I have this one class, which i really dont know what to do for it. We have a pin up in which we show what we have been working on, and i have nothing. I am very uninspired, in all areas of my life these day. Glad this semester is coming to a close.
I work with these kids, teen girls and i help lead a bible study. Their behavior is off the chain, so was heated last week and had to roll out. Its all too often kaotic and that has become the norm. So hopefully, we can start to provide then with more structure and make better use of theirs and our time.

My eating habits are bad, so me and 2 of my housemates are going on a no sweets kick until thanksgiving. I have been doing good. I am on my 4th day. Now i have to just start working out again, but I am always tired or just lazy. Probably the latter. lol

Thats me